Right now at 11:26 am. I sit in my bed, listening to “healer” . Tears streaming down my face, something hit me. I remembered a verse in the bible that I have held onto for like 3 years.
John 13:35 ” Your love for one another will prove to the world , you are my disciples.
I have been really dealing with alot of different things lately. Emotions, sickness, and just flat out FIGHTING for what I know God has put on my life. I am dealing with the hurt of loosing people that I thought really cared. Friends that ended up being fake. I have learned that its not about who loves us, but about who WE take the time to love. Jesus loved even when they spit in his face, completely betrayed him, let him be abused and mis-treated.
He has been showing and teaching me lately that our life is alot like construction. I have been having to go the long way to get home because our exit is closed on the interstate. God spoke to me yesterday as I was agrivated and being gripey about having to go the long way. I just heard him say ” Hannah , your life is alot like construction. Sometimes I have to close part of it, to make it better. To make it easier for people to access, to enlargen it for more people. Yes, its painful, sometimes agrivating and alot of times just hard. but when you see my masterpiece , it was all worth it.” But sometimes construction isn’t as succesful as they planned. It doesn’t completely fullfill the purpose they had in mind. We are like that alot of times, we have the choice to be used to the best of our ability , but sometimes we choose to do other wise. “
How are you going to use the construction that God is doing in your life?
It is foolish to belittle one’s neighbor; a sensible person keeps quiet. A gossip goes around telling secrets,but those who are trustworthy can keep a confidence.- Proverbs 11:12-13
Dont be fake! Be a real friend, be a real leader. A leader IS NOT SOMEONE WHO ONLY SPEAKS ON STAGE, Who plans everything, who is the known person. Being a faithful leader is being a friend to the hurting, Loving until you can’t love anymore, making yourself available, not judging, but giving helpful, LOVING, advice.
My heart and body, are in the place right now that only Gods healing power can fix it. I will not run, I will not hide, I will not stay too busy. I will rest in Gods presence. HE IS MORE THAN ENOUGH FOR ME! I will sit here in his presence and let him pour his love on me, let him pull up the stuff that is painful so he can replace it with something that can be used to help other people. My stumbling blocks, can be someone elses stepping stones.
I listen to this song right now… The lyrics are
I don’t understand Your ways
Oh but I will give You my song
Give You all of my praise
You hold on to all my pain
With it You are pulling me closer
And pulling me into Your ways
fountains
I’m desperate in seeking, frantic believing
That the sight of Your face
Is all that I need
I will say to YouIt’s gonna be worth it
It’s gonna be worth it
It’s gonna be worth it all
I believe this
It’s gonna be worth it
It’s gonna be worth it
It’s gonna be worth it all
I believe this
You’re gonna be worth it
You’re gonna be worth it
You’re gonna be worth it all
I believe this
You’re gonna be worth it
You’re gonna be worth it
You’re gonna be worth it all
I believe this
I will hold on to this. I will fight! Fight for the people I love, the people I haven’t met yet, the kids all around the world who are all alone and hurting. I will FIGHT! But in the midst of fighting, I will not forget to Love. Jesus, Help me NEVER forget to love, even if my heart feels so much pain. ! I thank you Jesus for the friends you have put in my life. That really care, that are true! I will praise you in the midst of this storm, because this too SHALL PASS!!!!
